I have come to the realization that I'm just too tough ALL the time. Sometimes having barriers are good but I am an extremist. So in hopes to become a better lady, mother, employee, business woman, friend, & family member I'm going to allow myself to love and be loved. Now for some people this seems so natural...for me I'm on pins & needles. Yes, I help friends, family and strangers with all things dealing in relationships. But I keep a distance from it in my own life. Yeah I've gone beyond my comfort zone never have I submerged myself with it. Which is why I have come to the conclusion to dive in. Once I took time to think about my decision I started as we say "feeling some type of way". This will be a challenge as I step in unknown territory. I know I deserve love but the mere thought someone would amazes me still. I can be difficult, distant amongst tactics I use to push men away.
In 2011 I will set out to reprogram my way of thinking on me being in a relationship. I am motivated, excited, prayerful, nervous but more importantly I'm focused man!!!!
I think this says a lot and you are more likely to be receptive of love if you open yourself up and let it flow like the Nile...Im glad that you have come to this realization, dont settle though, you know your worth beautiful...:)
ReplyDeleteThanks for your comment. Right now I am still leary on the "open up like the Nile" part. I am staying prayerful that the one for me will have me so comfortable I wont notice.
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