I have come to the realization that I'm just too tough ALL the time. Sometimes having barriers are good but I am an extremist. So in hopes to become a better lady, mother, employee, business woman, friend, & family member I'm going to allow myself to love and be loved. Now for some people this seems so natural...for me I'm on pins & needles. Yes, I help friends, family and strangers with all things dealing in relationships. But I keep a distance from it in my own life. Yeah I've gone beyond my comfort zone never have I submerged myself with it. Which is why I have come to the conclusion to dive in. Once I took time to think about my decision I started as we say "feeling some type of way". This will be a challenge as I step in unknown territory. I know I deserve love but the mere thought someone would amazes me still. I can be difficult, distant amongst tactics I use to push men away.
In 2011 I will set out to reprogram my way of thinking on me being in a relationship. I am motivated, excited, prayerful, nervous but more importantly I'm focused man!!!!